I’ve been noticing more and more lately that I cannot do anything without God. When life is going good I tend to forget about Him because I get so caught up in what I’m doing. I feel like a dog with it’s tail between it’s legs sometimes when I realize that the reason things are going downhill is because I haven’t talked to Him lately and haven’t trusted Him. Why is it in our nature to do this?
Sometimes I get so exhausted and disappointed with myself that I just give up. I stop trying and I turn my heart off – I stop caring. I hate that. I hate not caring. When I start not caring, I don’t talk to God, I don’t read my Bible, I do stuff I know is wrong and I don’t care. I need to stop doing that. I know that there’s only one way that that can happen and that’s to start caring. It’s hard though. It’s not an easy journey.
I know what the path is, I just tend to walk in the bushes a lot. I need to start reading my Bible more and talking to God a lot more and trust that if I do that, He’ll help me to start caring again. I’ll get back on His path and things will be good again. I just have to remember to pray that when I’m on the right path, I’ll stay on it. I won’t forget about Him and I won’t take advantage of Him. Okay, I’m done – God is SO good and he’s blessed me so much lately. How can you not care about someone who cares so much for you even when you don’t care about Him?